With much thanks to my career, I have been generously paid for my service. With this generosity, I always feel a need to give to people I cares very much about. After all, it is the spirit of giving where I can do something, although it may seems to be shallow to many.
I have a friend I deeply cares about even to this day, having known her for almost a decade. A couple years back, I have come to a point where I thought it would be a mutual benefit for us to form a partnership in a consulting business for her. She is one of the rare people that are very driven, where any obstacles would be defeated, as long as she has the opportunity.
However, her confidence level was a major factor back then. There are many reasons for this handicap, some sounding like excuses, and some sounding like a woman lib rap sheet. Fortunately, this issue has mostly been addressed; as each and every day, countless peers continue to praise her incredible efforts.
After all, this is a woman living in a rural area that self-taught herself how to diagnosis major problems with her computer. She is a dream girl for any aspiring geeks out there!
Unfortunately, while the going was good as I continue to help her business get going, financially, lately, we have been very busy with our own lives. This is totally understandable, but I have noticed one thing. When it comes to money issues, she was very much willing to tell me about her life. No, not like that, but when there may be something that she will need to be able to afford, she would be making a comment one way or another.
My efforts to share my life with her have long since waned, so thus the birth of this blog. Why should I wait to tell her about my life, when I can just put it on here, and wait for her to read it?
Funny enough, she never read this, despite my prodding.
It has gotten to the point where we barely speak with each other the past few weeks. Then she started mentioning about her financial situation, and her move to a new (cheaper!) apartment, and more. The last time she has made payment on her loan was November of last year. Not have she even made any effort to even pay even a token $10 to keep the goodwill alive. Not have she discussed her financial situation in any depth.
I care very much for her, but this is a business decision that must be made. I told her that until something changes in a way that I know that I will be repaid, I can not make any further investment for her business. This was a very hard decision to make, much less share with her. So hard, it is hurting me as I am typing this.
The saying that business and friendship should not mix can never be more than true here.
